Last First Day of Undergrad
I am so excited to finally be back at school. It has been a long summer and I am more than ready to take on senior year. I am now in week 5 of my senior year, fall semester and am loving my classes. I am only a few classes away from graduating in May with my Bachelors degree in Psychology with a Leadership Studies minor. I could not be more excited but am slowly realizing that I do not want to leave this beautiful place.
Being back on campus feels like a sense of relief. All of the bad, boring and long days are finally over. Summer was never really my thing to begin with. Although summer was refreshing to be back home with Comet and my family but it is time to finish up what I started.
As a senior, I have so many different emotions running through my mind. I have taken a couple weeks before I made my blog post about getting back into the swing of things at school because I realized I had no idea where to begin. I am excited, scared, anxious, blessed and more importantly lucky to even feel the ways I feel about college at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign.
I feel lucky and excited to be back because I am someone who is extremely passionate about school. I love every aspect of it including the extracurricular activities, sporting events, tailgates, lunch dates with friends and more importantly studying. YES, I said studying. Every part of every one of those things has made me who I am on this campus. I am still highly involved this year on campus with different organizations including: Illini Pride, Psi Chi, being an Elite Notetaker for StudySoup and I am still a blogger for the college of LAS here on campus. I have also added on some new roles which include: HerCampus as a social media intern and I also am lending a hand in the psychology department in terms of newsletters that go out to alumni as well as helping run the social media platforms.
HerCampus is the #1 global community for college women, written entirely by the nation’s top college journalists from 300+ campus chapters around the world. My role within HerCampus is to be their social media intern. This is something I am looking forward to as writing and social media are right up my alley.
One of the many emotions I battle is feeling scared. Feeling scared of leaving this incredible place where I have built a life for myself and have made some purpose behind my name. This is where I met my first roommate, rented my first apartment and got involved in something bigger than myself. I am scared that once I graduate it will all go away and I will be back to square one. College is one of those times I wish everyone was able to witness the way I have through life here on campus. Although, no matter how scary it might seem at least I will always know that I will forever be an Illini.
Feeling anxious and blessed all at once is really a rollercoaster. I am anxious to graduate and figure out what I will be doing with the rest of my life and at times I also feel blessed to even be thinking of that because I know sometimes that might not be the case for everyone. I have worked extremely hard to get to where I am now and by no means was this easy but it has definitely payed off in ways that I would have never expected. I am anxious to start my life outside of college and finally get my own place with my boyfriend of almost 6 years as well as start a family in the near future. I am anxious for what life holds for me after all of this.
Blessed is almost a word I don’t use enough. I can honestly say that time and time again I have been blessed with the opportunity of a lifetime. Some days I sit in my room and think to myself; how did I get here? This was never the original plan.. Honestly, this was the best plan for me and I wouldn’t change it for the world. I was contemplating other schools because I would have laughed at you if you told me that I would be accepted into a school this large and accredited and not end up failing. However, I have managed to do just the opposite of that and everyday I am grateful that Illinois chose me.
Moving forward this semester, I am going to keep my head held high despite all of the obstacles I may run into when thinking of my future. I also plan to take in every opportunity that gets thrown my way. This has been my motto from the very beginning of my college career: How will you know if you like it if you don’t try it? With that being said, I have applied to almost everything that has come my way and have been accepted into almost everything as well. I will continue to flourish academically and remain positive throughout the rest of my year here as an Illini. It will be bittersweet picking my classes this November for my last and final semester as an undergraduate but I will pick classes with excitement and joy knowing that at the end of this I can proudly say, “I did it”.
In the future, I hope to be a good role model to those growing up that follow my blog. I want everyone to know that you are capable of anything that you set your heart on despite money issues, or even things that one may tell you. I am living proof that you can do anything and even everything if you aspire to. By no means have I had money to throw out there to be this involved but I worked hard, completed psychology studies on my free time, and worked a couple of jobs to be as involved as I wanted and I did it. College is something I feel like a lot of people take for granted. Soak up every opportunity and you will grow in ways you never thought you would.
Sending love and positivity your way today.